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Yama-chan has always been a good friend to me in private too so we have lots of memories together. Too many, there’s so many I don’t know which ones to talk about. When I said “I’m going to America”, he was probably the member that disagreed with it the most. I know that it’s because his “Love of JUMP” is stronger than anyone else’s. So that he can say “Keito, I’m really glad you went and studied abroad” in the future, I want to face towards the seas and grow. This has become a strong motivation for me now. He was harsh on and considerate of that naïve part that I have inside myself, I was supported by Yama-chan’s immense kindness.
Since before the group was formed, the one that I get along the best with is Chinen. After we debuted, he came to get along well with me too. We’ve been traveling together, and when we went to eat it was like we just ate in silence, he’s someone I can feel comfortable with in a space that doesn’t need to be filled with words. Chinen understands me, the same as Yama-chan so, when I told him about going to study abroad he said “I want you to come back as a person who has grown so much that we think “We are really incredible””. He encouraged me with his words stronger than any I had heard before. Maybe it’s because I have so many memories of that Chinen, that I am able to think “There is a place for me to come back to”. When I come back to Japan, I want to show Chinen my growth, as a colleague and a friend.
He’s really interested in my current studies abroad and talks to me, and he has conversations in English with me too. Because Yutti is quick to absorb things and make them his own, when I’m careless with my English conversation now it’s started to be like “My English skills are no match for Yutti’s” (bitter laugh). When I’m living in NY he said to me “I’m definitely coming to visit you so be my guide”, this is what has come to support my heart now. While I’m studying abroad, I wonder how Nakajima Yuto will grow more as a member of JUMP and as himself, I think he is becoming bigger as a person too. When I come back to Japan, I’m grateful that he makes me think “It’s not worth it if I can’t beat Yutti with the skills I learn”.
Dai-chan has always been a kind, warm and considerate person. A little after debut, there was a time when I was worried about which path I should take. Since I’m an only child, and I was away from my parents living in all kinds of different places, I didn’t have anyone I could talk to about my worries. Back then, I confided my worries in Dai-chan while I was crying, and he cried together with me. This time as well, the first person I told about going to study abroad was Dai-chan. We were standing on a train platform and I told him what I was thinking, he said “I don’t know how things will turn out but, take the chance, and I’ll support you”, it made me really happy. But during that time about 5 trains passed us by (lol). I will never forget that moment in my life, I will make sure I can live up to Dai-chan’s expectations!
When I’m worrying about something, or when I find myself falling into some kind of situation, Yuya says “It’s you, so I know that you’ll be completely fine”, he has always been encouraging to me. I talked to him a little before going to study abroad but, when I made the official decision he sent me a message that said “I can sort of understand what you’re thinking, and maybe I understand what kind of feelings are driving you to go to New York. Keito’s charm is being loved by other people so you’ll be fine. You’re going to study abroad alone but, take the memories of every JUMP member with you in your heart!”, I was moved when I got this message. Long ago and still now, I am guided in the right direction by this warmth of Yuya’s, and now this time too I can be brave and say “Ok, for the sake of the group I’ll go it on my own!”. Yuya, thank-you.
I talked to the members little by little about my feelings of going to study abroad but, once I had made a proper decision on specifically “Where I will do what”, I thought “I have to tell all the members”. But, when I told Ino-chan what I was thinking he gave me some advice, he said “For the sake of the members, wouldn’t it be better to make a time where Keito can express his feelings to everyone together”. In the end, I was glad that I did things just as Ino-chan said. In society, there are people that misunderstand the image that Ino-chan gives but, he is a person who always properly sees and thinks about the group as a whole. I will do my best to study lots of things so that Ino-chan will acknowledge me.
Since the time of our debut, Hikaru-kun has been like a big brother to me. I started to play guitar thanks to Hikaru-kun’s influence too, singing and dancing, and working on variety shows, for all these things I struggled with he would give me lots of concrete advice like “It’s better to do it this way”. After I decided to go and study abroad, when Hikaru-kun and I found ourselves alone together, I’ll never forget his face when he asked me “What are you going to do over there?”. It’s not like “being separated from a sibling” but… It’s lonely not being able to see him anymore. But, it’s exactly because I have these feelings now that I want to do my best, I want to say to Hikaru-kun someday “I can do these things now”, and I think it would be nice if in return I can teach him the things that I have learnt in New York. Hikaru-kun seems to be that kind of person. So like the JUMP band, I want to play with Hikaru-kun again someday.
Right now, all of the members are worrying about me but, Yabu-kun is worrying about me the most. At the time of our debut, I couldn’t do anything and Yabu-kun would be the one to teach me and to scold me too, and even now after ten years I am grateful that this hasn’t changed. I believe that I am going to do this study abroad for JUMP’s benefit, on the one hand I have these burning feelings like “I’m absolutely going to grow”, there are lonely feelings too, and honestly I also feel guilty about what I am doing to the members. But, Yabu-kun, while cheering me on as person, is also worrying about me. After making the decision to go and study abroad too, we talked about is casually, and he called me and asked “Are you doing ok?”, I was really happy that he was looking out for me like he always had been, I am thankful that I am able to feel the broadness of Yabu-kun’s heart and soul.
To all the fans…
I must have caused a lot of shock to all of the fans that have been supporting me so far. But, if I wasn’t a member of Hey! Say! JUMP, and if I didn’t have the continued support of the fans, I don’t think I would have been able to make this decision. These two years are for the sake of future me, to become a person fit for JUMP. I am grateful to so many people, and so that they can tell me “I’m glad that you went and studied aboard”, I will take things seriously and give it my all!
Popolo October ‘18